I am back to blogger. I have transferred all my tumblr posts here too. While reviving this blog, I read through some of my older posts and realized that I have mature quite a bit. Do not bother searching for the older posts, I have kept them at a safe vault. Each time I return to this place, I feel that I have grown much. I am really glad that I have kept a blog in the past. It is like a second memory.
Moving on, I have been trying very hard to keep to my resolution. I am going to move past my emotional past. Be less serious about everything, and you will never be unhappy. Am I being emotional by thinking about this issue? Okay this is really the end of my pathetic self.
Cheers to the birth of a wonderful guy who enjoys life.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
The day heaven cried with me
Just a short summary:
I am so glad to have been touched by an angel this year, this Christmas. I’m glad that I have one less regret. Regarding army, I might be dreading Army now, but when I enlist it will just be like returning back to Cat High. All guys down there for me to fool around with. I guess that I will be so exhausted daily that I do not have much ‘thinking time’. Pray for some like-minded retards.
I’m glad that some things that I have done, have not been forgotten though it might have been something trivial. I’m glad for your assurance. I’m glad for everything. I will remember this for a very very long time( forever? ). Don’t forget me too. Thanks for this memorable Christmas. :V
I am so glad to have been touched by an angel this year, this Christmas. I’m glad that I have one less regret. Regarding army, I might be dreading Army now, but when I enlist it will just be like returning back to Cat High. All guys down there for me to fool around with. I guess that I will be so exhausted daily that I do not have much ‘thinking time’. Pray for some like-minded retards.
I’m glad that some things that I have done, have not been forgotten though it might have been something trivial. I’m glad for your assurance. I’m glad for everything. I will remember this for a very very long time( forever? ). Don’t forget me too. Thanks for this memorable Christmas. :V
Army
Ugly guys come out looking decent.
Good-looking guys come out hot.
Weaklings come out strong.
What will a cute guy like me turn out to be in the end?
Good-looking guys come out hot.
Weaklings come out strong.
What will a cute guy like me turn out to be in the end?
Resolution
I’m starting my resolution early.
Goodbye to the old insecure mesoon.
Hello to the new fabulous me.
Goodbye to the old insecure me
Hello to the new fabulous me.
Like a fool
It was a tough decIsion. And I don’t feel any better after saying it. Trust me, I’m like a fool.
Prom
Had Prom last monday. I must say it was way better than what we had in CHS. Everyone of us took the effort to dress up so everyone kind of transformed. Saw many girls whom I have no impression at all. Okay but they look pretty, must admit. Power of make-up?
The whole dinner was quite boring though.The dinner was great but not filling. The Prom king and queen nominees were quite funny, not sure if it was a joke or what. One of the nominee was a guy who was often bullied, their LGMH.
Took plenty of pictures since I looked so good that day, like usual.
After Prom, we went to Kbox. Tried smuggling in Vodka and succeeded. Played Ring of Death while the rest sang and did other nonsense. I must admit I felt a little giddy but I wasn’t drunk like what the rest claimed. Must be because I never ate enough during dinenr. I think it was too obvious so the staff came in to warn us. Alright, so the game stopped, played poker cards and sang. I sang quite well. Potential to be superstar.
Went back to hotel room to clean up, had breakfast, went home and slept for 9 hours straight.
The whole dinner was quite boring though.The dinner was great but not filling. The Prom king and queen nominees were quite funny, not sure if it was a joke or what. One of the nominee was a guy who was often bullied, their LGMH.
Took plenty of pictures since I looked so good that day, like usual.
After Prom, we went to Kbox. Tried smuggling in Vodka and succeeded. Played Ring of Death while the rest sang and did other nonsense. I must admit I felt a little giddy but I wasn’t drunk like what the rest claimed. Must be because I never ate enough during dinenr. I think it was too obvious so the staff came in to warn us. Alright, so the game stopped, played poker cards and sang. I sang quite well. Potential to be superstar.
Went back to hotel room to clean up, had breakfast, went home and slept for 9 hours straight.
Big Bad Wolf
I found out that there is something special about me. I have the ability to make both guys and girls worked up without even doing anything to them.
For example,
If I add a girl on FB and there is a mutual friend between us, that mutual friend will get all defensive and start having negative thoughts about me. It is really funny that they always think that I randomly add girls.
Okay I do sometimes, but the cases are few and rare. Oh I don’t have any problems when I add guys though.
Hmmm maybe I’ve done some stuffs in the past that has portrayed this kind of image for myself. Not too sure about that.
This whole thing is actually quite funny and entertaining so I shall continue playing my big bad wolf. (Y)
For example,
If I add a girl on FB and there is a mutual friend between us, that mutual friend will get all defensive and start having negative thoughts about me. It is really funny that they always think that I randomly add girls.
Okay I do sometimes, but the cases are few and rare. Oh I don’t have any problems when I add guys though.
Hmmm maybe I’ve done some stuffs in the past that has portrayed this kind of image for myself. Not too sure about that.
This whole thing is actually quite funny and entertaining so I shall continue playing my big bad wolf. (Y)
Hard to get
While I was telling my recent encounters with the ‘Third Kind’ to my classmates, a certain handsome eurasian friend of mine butted in and gave his unnecessary comments. He said that they always play too hard to get, and end up making the ordinary mortals give up on them.
I agree that while playing hard to get adds value, it is hard to set a limit to it. If only we can read minds. Oh well.
I agree that while playing hard to get adds value, it is hard to set a limit to it. If only we can read minds. Oh well.
Dreams
It is the second time that I’ve had a dream of that kind. In both dream, I’ve lost the same person in different ways and I cried. It felt so real, maybe it was but I was too tired to concentrate on crying. My insecurities played out inside my dreams. Hope it doesn’t come as a monthly thing O.O.
Drinking
Went drinking with fellow hunters, had a taste of real alcohol.
Played Ring of Death, lucky to be alive now.
Had HTHT, they provided me with insighful comments. Quite hilarious, esp JJ. Focus on my only purpose in life, do not be tempted by devils.
Played Ring of Death, lucky to be alive now.
Had HTHT, they provided me with insighful comments. Quite hilarious, esp JJ. Focus on my only purpose in life, do not be tempted by devils.
Men
Men worry only about two things in life - women and money.
I think I am being weighed down by both at the same time. I guess I am just being paranoid about many things, so I want to go and find some work to keep myself busy and earn money too. Preferably with cute girls around, best.
A certain Mr Tan who is not as hot as me once said that guys in love always say that no one else can beat (the name of their crush), when in fact there are many other better girls out there. As retarded as it sounds (since it is from Ah Tan) , it has some truth in it. In fact I think I have experienced that for quite a few times. Cut the long crap short, sometimes we must use our heads instead of our hearts. But it is always easier said than done. Efffffff.
I think I am being weighed down by both at the same time. I guess I am just being paranoid about many things, so I want to go and find some work to keep myself busy and earn money too. Preferably with cute girls around, best.
A certain Mr Tan who is not as hot as me once said that guys in love always say that no one else can beat (the name of their crush), when in fact there are many other better girls out there. As retarded as it sounds (since it is from Ah Tan) , it has some truth in it. In fact I think I have experienced that for quite a few times. Cut the long crap short, sometimes we must use our heads instead of our hearts. But it is always easier said than done. Efffffff.
Life
A levels has finally ended, except for one physics MCQ. I feel like I have lost my purpose in life, nothing to look forward to.
For those that know me well, I have only two purposes in life currently.
For my other purpose in my life, I feel like I am losing sight of it. I just feel that way, no reason whatsoever. But I guess it is all fated, so shall try to not think too much.
I shall spend all my time playing and experimenting with many stuffs. Two months later I shall vanish from this island, might not be a bad thing.
For those that know me well, I have only two purposes in life currently.
For my other purpose in my life, I feel like I am losing sight of it. I just feel that way, no reason whatsoever. But I guess it is all fated, so shall try to not think too much.
I shall spend all my time playing and experimenting with many stuffs. Two months later I shall vanish from this island, might not be a bad thing.
One down, two to go
Chemistry Paper 3 was screwed
Gp paper 1 was screwed
Mathematics was also screwed
Whats next?
Gp paper 1 was screwed
Mathematics was also screwed
Whats next?
Life
Been a long time since I’ve updated.
I’ve been working quite hard in my own opinion, like after two long years I have finally started studying. I hope miracle will happen once again.
HY said something which I thought made sense. He said that with a degree, even if you earn like 10k a month, you would need around 10 years to save to a million. Quite true, I wonder how am I going to achieve my goals.
Life is peaceful, can’t wait till the bitch of an A’levels ends.
Till then.
I’ve been working quite hard in my own opinion, like after two long years I have finally started studying. I hope miracle will happen once again.
HY said something which I thought made sense. He said that with a degree, even if you earn like 10k a month, you would need around 10 years to save to a million. Quite true, I wonder how am I going to achieve my goals.
Life is peaceful, can’t wait till the bitch of an A’levels ends.
Till then.
Quoted from GGH
Sakuragi was a slacker, always trying to ask girls out but getting constantly rejected.
My life summarised in one sentence, according to ggh. (Y)
My life summarised in one sentence, according to ggh. (Y)
My job as the one who creates trouble and practically joking and talking nonsense for every single minute in school will end tomorrow.
I am so glad to know that I have made an impact in my friends’ lives mostly in a positive way. To me, it is definitely more memorable than any other things that happened in school (except when I become top student, the times when I did stupid things).
Of course, I have caused some trouble to some people at different time of the year, hope that they will forget about it. If they don’t forget, then all I can do is to inject more positive stuffs till its concentration »> unhappy incidents. Reminds me of chemistry.
Oh, I have decided not to hate chemistry. If I get owned by chemistry, that is because I suck. So just work hard should be alright. I want to get through this crisis. I want to go NS with some classmates and wreck havoc there. I want to go same course as some of them and agani wreck havoc there. ( not project management okay). To sum it up, I am a genius who is positively retarded. This is an ironic paradox which Ah tan would not understand.
I am so glad to know that I have made an impact in my friends’ lives mostly in a positive way. To me, it is definitely more memorable than any other things that happened in school (except when I become top student, the times when I did stupid things).
Of course, I have caused some trouble to some people at different time of the year, hope that they will forget about it. If they don’t forget, then all I can do is to inject more positive stuffs till its concentration »> unhappy incidents. Reminds me of chemistry.
Oh, I have decided not to hate chemistry. If I get owned by chemistry, that is because I suck. So just work hard should be alright. I want to get through this crisis. I want to go NS with some classmates and wreck havoc there. I want to go same course as some of them and agani wreck havoc there. ( not project management okay). To sum it up, I am a genius who is positively retarded. This is an ironic paradox which Ah tan would not understand.
Leaving
It has been a long time since my last proper post. Even I get bored coming to my own blog.
A few days ago, my friend was telling me about how sad she felt when the guy she liked left for UK. Then she asked me what did I think the guy might have felt at that moment. So in order to do that, I had to place myself in his shoes. It is hard to describe that feeling. Shall not go into too much detail.
All I can say that, it is hard to say goodbye, especially to the person you really like.
A few days ago, my friend was telling me about how sad she felt when the guy she liked left for UK. Then she asked me what did I think the guy might have felt at that moment. So in order to do that, I had to place myself in his shoes. It is hard to describe that feeling. Shall not go into too much detail.
All I can say that, it is hard to say goodbye, especially to the person you really like.
Genius
As much as I hate to, the time has come for me to put down everything and concentrate on my studies.
It is time to wake up the genius in me.
It is time to wake up the genius in me.
Hatred
I hate the junk that they make us study in school.
I hate myself for being such a noob in everything.
I hate chemistry.
I hate myself for being such a noob in everything.
I hate chemistry.
Annoyed
Annoyed that some teacher stopped me from going to the parade square 2 minutes before the school bell rings. I swear I was going to run there.
With 2 minutes, I can
With 2 minutes, I can
- Run around the school track once
- Run to the train station
- Finish a plate of food
Confidence
I need to boost my confidence.
I am incredibly handsome, extremely humourous and highly intelligent.
Whatever I want, it cannot escape from me.
I almost forgot to say, Chemistry sucks…er..whatever you want.
I am incredibly handsome, extremely humourous and highly intelligent.
Whatever I want, it cannot escape from me.
I almost forgot to say, Chemistry sucks…er..whatever you want.
Results
My results were within my expectation. Nothing much to say about them.
I swear to work harder and aim higher. I know I’ve probably said it a million times, but this time it’ll be different.
And chemistry sucks.
I swear to work harder and aim higher. I know I’ve probably said it a million times, but this time it’ll be different.
And chemistry sucks.
Random
Hi, it is quite funny how different people view my blog in different perspectives.
Okay, for people that knows me well, you should know there are only a few things on my mind right now. Just to make things clear, studies is one of them okay.(<——- to YR) I do care about studies, just not as much as what it should be. And I effing hate chemistry.
Firstly, I’m a man of the men. I do want to post manly stuff, but it is not convenient to post it here. Yeah it’ll be funny, maybe next time.
Next, I’m not emo-ing. This is actually how I feel. Shows that I’m sincere about it.(<—- to YR)
Finally, of course I think like how a normal guy thinks. Shall not reveal too much here. (Y)
Okay, for people that knows me well, you should know there are only a few things on my mind right now. Just to make things clear, studies is one of them okay.(<——- to YR) I do care about studies, just not as much as what it should be. And I effing hate chemistry.
Firstly, I’m a man of the men. I do want to post manly stuff, but it is not convenient to post it here. Yeah it’ll be funny, maybe next time.
Next, I’m not emo-ing. This is actually how I feel. Shows that I’m sincere about it.(<—- to YR)
Finally, of course I think like how a normal guy thinks. Shall not reveal too much here. (Y)
F word
I think that all guys dread the F word. Yes, the word is “friends”.
There must be two conditions to fulfil:
1) It is packaged as “I like you as a friend/ We’re just friends”
2) It must be from the girl that you like.
This dreadful word has brought about many heartaches to all the guys in the world. Yet, there is only so much that we can do. What a sad world.
There must be two conditions to fulfil:
1) It is packaged as “I like you as a friend/ We’re just friends”
2) It must be from the girl that you like.
This dreadful word has brought about many heartaches to all the guys in the world. Yet, there is only so much that we can do. What a sad world.
Wuss
I bumped into an old friend today. He asked me about life and old friends in school. When I told him that no one was bullying one of our old friend, he said that, “What the fuck, all the pussies in AJ.”
This made me reflect on myself. I was never a daredevil back in secondary school. However, we used to do things without thinking of the consequences. Thinking back, it can be considered daring to a certain extent. As we mature, we shoulder more responsiblities and this forces us to act in a certain manner. Yet sometimes I think this is just an excuse for being such a wuss.
For 2 years I have been a wuss. There are many things that I want to do but the wuss in me is always holding me back. Being a wuss will not help me get them. I’m thankful for the support that the cat high guys and my juniors have given me so far. Its time to be a real cat high guy.
This made me reflect on myself. I was never a daredevil back in secondary school. However, we used to do things without thinking of the consequences. Thinking back, it can be considered daring to a certain extent. As we mature, we shoulder more responsiblities and this forces us to act in a certain manner. Yet sometimes I think this is just an excuse for being such a wuss.
For 2 years I have been a wuss. There are many things that I want to do but the wuss in me is always holding me back. Being a wuss will not help me get them. I’m thankful for the support that the cat high guys and my juniors have given me so far. Its time to be a real cat high guy.
Fate
I suddenly thought about fate.
One question that I like to ask people is, “Do you believe in fate?”
Most of the replies would be a yes.
Do I believe in fate? I often say yes but deep down I wonder if it is more of a coincidence than fate. At this stage, it is too early to tell if there is fate.
Give me 5 years and I will tell you about my answer.
One question that I like to ask people is, “Do you believe in fate?”
Most of the replies would be a yes.
Do I believe in fate? I often say yes but deep down I wonder if it is more of a coincidence than fate. At this stage, it is too early to tell if there is fate.
Give me 5 years and I will tell you about my answer.
Girls and smokers
There is a common relation between girls and smokers. According to my friend’s theory, when girls say something, the general rule is to take the opposite meaning of it. This is true for ALL cases.
For example,
Situation 1: You ask a girl if she likes you. The girl says no.
Real situation: The girl likes you.
Situation 2: You hear your girlfriend’s stomach growling. You ask if she is hungry. She says yes.
Real situation: She isn’t hungry at all. You probably heard a dog growling.
This trend has been observed with smokers. When they light their first stick, they say that they will not get hooked on it. When you meet them a week later, they have evolved into chain smokers. The main point is, stop them before their first stick. If they say they are not addicted, they are.
And don’t ever try to understand girls, you can’t. ( quoted from Mr. Herd)
For example,
Situation 1: You ask a girl if she likes you. The girl says no.
Real situation: The girl likes you.
Situation 2: You hear your girlfriend’s stomach growling. You ask if she is hungry. She says yes.
Real situation: She isn’t hungry at all. You probably heard a dog growling.
This trend has been observed with smokers. When they light their first stick, they say that they will not get hooked on it. When you meet them a week later, they have evolved into chain smokers. The main point is, stop them before their first stick. If they say they are not addicted, they are.
And don’t ever try to understand girls, you can’t. ( quoted from Mr. Herd)
Two kinds of happy people
I’m not exactly sure but I feel that there are two kinds of happy people.
The first is the kind who looks happy on the surface. It is almost impossible to tell but deep down he has alot of unhappiness. It depends on who he is with that he will show his happiness.
The second is the kind who is genuinely happy. They do not have to make any effort and it is observable 24/7.
This is done based on information and observations about some happy people I’ve encountered. So it is not very complete. Plus I not feeling happy that I have 40+ days to A levels so no mood to analyse too deeply.
The first is the kind who looks happy on the surface. It is almost impossible to tell but deep down he has alot of unhappiness. It depends on who he is with that he will show his happiness.
The second is the kind who is genuinely happy. They do not have to make any effort and it is observable 24/7.
This is done based on information and observations about some happy people I’ve encountered. So it is not very complete. Plus I not feeling happy that I have 40+ days to A levels so no mood to analyse too deeply.
Attitude
I think there is a serious problem with my attitude. Most probably it is caused by the school. Firstly, I’m quite used to failing tests because I don’t give a shit about them. Tests are for annoying you. When it comes to major exam I would panic and study a little bit harder. However, since the start of JC, I have been failing quite badly and yet I have no motivation to study even for major exams.
Just this morning, I had paper 2 for math. When I saw the paper, I did not feel like doing. Plus it was tough to even attempt to think of a solution. So I just wrote some solutions which I know had more probability of being wrong. Yet I don’t give a shit. Is it me or is this happening to everyone? Apparently I was the only one in the hall who was relaxing throughout. Life sucks.
I should just live the next 200 years of my life on some beach where my attitude will help me to shine.
Just this morning, I had paper 2 for math. When I saw the paper, I did not feel like doing. Plus it was tough to even attempt to think of a solution. So I just wrote some solutions which I know had more probability of being wrong. Yet I don’t give a shit. Is it me or is this happening to everyone? Apparently I was the only one in the hall who was relaxing throughout. Life sucks.
I should just live the next 200 years of my life on some beach where my attitude will help me to shine.
Life after death
It seems like a weird timing to post this now but I’m bored from ATTEMPTING to study for the Mathematics paper tomorrow. So when I saw my fats I decided I would plan about what I would do after A levels.
Firstly, I would go exercise everyday. Play basketball with class, go Ngee Ann and crash their volleyball training, swim and go gym. So even if I cannot grow taller, I can have tight solid abs. Yeah TTK, I swear I will be 10x more goodlooking than now.
Next, I would go and find a job. I want to earn enough money for me to buy stuff that I have always wanted.
And finally, maybe I should mug abit, just in case the worst thing happens to me. Then I would be able to have a headstart.
Firstly, I would go exercise everyday. Play basketball with class, go Ngee Ann and crash their volleyball training, swim and go gym. So even if I cannot grow taller, I can have tight solid abs. Yeah TTK, I swear I will be 10x more goodlooking than now.
Next, I would go and find a job. I want to earn enough money for me to buy stuff that I have always wanted.
And finally, maybe I should mug abit, just in case the worst thing happens to me. Then I would be able to have a headstart.
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