Army lingo

There are some words that I keep hearing in the army and it is seriously annoying the shit out of me. One of them is indented. From food to fans to transport, they just have to use indent for everything. Another word is stores. They call the equipment that we use as stores. Everyday the word stores is just bad news. We would bring them out ( quite heavy ) for either training or only to bring them in again. This is a pain in the ass when I'm trying to get a proper rest in bunk. Lastly the word I dread the most is book in. Instant depression upon hearing this word. FML .

Felt the urge to rant on my blog, unable to sleep and kept thinking about stuffs. So here I am, on my mobile typing away.
With A-level coming so soon, I feel very unprepared relative to last year. Super stressed out. One is because of lack of time, another is my self-discipline.
I think that everyone expects a lot from me. I don't know why is that the case. Even when I have so much to deal with, I have to entertain their requests. Okay so when I give in, they expect more from me. I effing have to book in to a damn run-down camp filled with morons after one week in civilian world, and my last day of freedom is fucking packed.
I don't know why recently I feel so much anger in me, prolly due to exam stress and mother bitch ns. I somehow feel that people think my life very easy, ns like some chalet, exams coming can just heck it. Every sunday book in for one week of orientation camp till the next book out. It is only Ns, nothing to do, book out also nothing to do.
I honestly think I am quite strong mentally, others in my position might have broken down long ago. Juggle so many things at once, just when you thought serving ns is brainless, there are so many things to learn and prepare for. Dealing with morons to hone your ability to survive in outside world. It all boils down to one thing-time. I. Need. More. Time. I don't want to lead an army life, screw this.

Life

Life has not been very good ever since I entered the Army. Things has been going downhill for everything. In short, this year has not been very smooth for me.
I have decided that I shall try to update once a week.
For my studies I have been slowing down, barely one topic per week. Plus I am not even sure if I can be granted leave to take the papers since it might clash with some operations. Thinking about taking the papers, kind of lonely to take the papers alone in an unknown surrounding.
And Army is really pissing me off. Overworked and underpaid. Inefficient to the max.I figured out that our national service could have been completed in a year if it is not so inefficient. Much of our time is spent waiting and we do not really achieve much in our second year.
This week hasn't been very good. Hope it will be better the next.
Why must we serve for so long? 509 days to ORD.

Update

Time to update my blog so that a certain special girl can read.
Time seems to fly when I am in the civilian trying  hard to concentrate on my studies, yet time crawls when I am in camp. Quite contradictory. Left 136 days to my first paper as of now. ( And 530 days to ORD )
Not very sure if I can do well but will push on anyway.
My life in the army is really sad, especially on sunday nights. Well, on the other hand I am grateful that I am in a super slack unit. My unit is very special, lots of smart people but are super weird and annoying. The type destined to be a man. I am also a man but I am definitely different. Lucky that I won't be with them forever, if not -.- . All the new sergeants will be coming in soon, and my funny sergeants will be gone. Sigh, all the fun gone.
Back to my studies, trying to study in camp everyday but sometimes I am to tired to do anything. Oh and army is a real waste of time. Shall not say too much. Lots of smart people so I try to find helpful people to aid me. Quite grateful for their help. Cannot wait for A Levels to be over and do many many things with a girl who calls me chubby.
Oh and I have not met up with my JC friends for a long long time. Shall meet them soon. But I feel very sluggish recently. Side-effects of being inside the army? Certainly. Hard to juggle so many things which are of similar importance.
To horsie: Do well for your MYE. Cannot wait to eat my korean bbq =/
Shall update soon.

Update

It has been a long time since I have updated this blog. Had been really busy ever since I enlisted in army. The first two weeks were horrible because the schedule was so packed that I practically had no time for own stuff. I am so glad that things are slower now since all the basic stuffs are settled. Went on to my first bookout, met some friends for lunch and stock up army items to prepare for fieldcamp. Time just went by and fieldcamp just ended not too long ago. I thought that the BMT school was bad but fieldcamp made me cherish it more. Basically army just made me cherish everything more, no matter how simple they are, like drinking water. I'm only halfway through BMT but I feel that I have grown stronger mentally and physically, mainly due to the things that we go through. I have seen many guys cry during the training, mainly because they miss the comfort of their home and their loved ones. Seriously cannot wait to graduate from this place. It has made me lost many things which I fear I cannot gain back in the future.
Went back to school yesterday to collect my results. Did not do well, could say that I flunked it. Well I kind of expected it since last year so I was not really affected by it. I cannot go anywhere so I need to really think about my next move. Basically either retake or go to a private university. However army is interfering with this and I probably cannot afford to study in a good private university. Shall think through it more. Now that I have read through the courses, I seriously am only attracted to business course but it is way beyond my reach. The other degrees offered are seriously boring. Okay I am only judging them by their names.
Finally, I am going to try my best to not lose certain things.

Class dinner

Went for the class dinner to send off the Feb guys. Had it at Bugis. After that a few of the guys went over to Clarke Quay to drink, but epic fail.
Lessons learnt:

• Sultan Fish is exclusive
• Choosing food with the guys is damn troublesome, more nonsense than practical comments
• Eating fish eye is still disgusting
• We must pick our teeth before eating
• Beer is disgusting
• Boat Quay is cool
• Shisha is quite cool

Work

Finally found a job. It is tough to get a job when you have only 2 weeks left on Earth.
I don't really like to work. I can't sleep in. I have a fixed routine in my life ( wake up, eat, work, sleep, repeat). I can't go and tan my body. When I still had ample time, it was raining daily from morning till night. Now when I need to work, the sun is effing bright. But but, I shall not complain too much because I need the money for a lot of things. Oh and I hate my baggy G2000 work pants. And I also don't like combing my hair. I am ending my work soon. After that, I shall go in army as a happy man, can hardly wait. (Y)

Chalet

It has been quite long since I've blogged because I am tired from work and also because of laziness. Due to popular demands, here goes an update.
Went for 13/09 chalet some time back.
Day 1: Late for 3 hours. Went for dinner at Just Acia. Went back stoned and tried very hard to sleep, epic fail. Finally slept around 5+.
Day 2: Went to Wild Wild Wet with the guys. All of us almost drowned at the tsunami pool, each at different point in time. This is because someone suggested going to the end of the pool without floats. Went back for BBQ. Played the "I have never" game and drank a little. Walked about Pasir Ris park, went back to share ghost stories and finally went to sleep.
Day 3: Packed up. Went to shop around with the rest for office wear. I left earlier to cut my stylish hair, but needed to wait 30 min. Kind of glad I did not cut, I like my hair now because it is damn nice.
Finally went home to rest and prepare for work the next day...which leads us to the next post.

American Pie

I have to say this, American Pie movies are the best movies ever made. Plus they have super nice soundtracks. So bored at home, glad to have these shows entertaining me.

Job

Managed to get a job. Although I don't really feel like working, I need the cash to settle some stuffs ( think ah-long ). It will be quite long before I receive my first NS pay.
So went for training today after sleeping for barely 4 hours, surprisingly the trainer was darn funny. So I kept laughing throughout and did not sleep like usual.
Next week I will be thrown into a new environment, shall rest more this week.

Danzation

Went to catch Danzation. I was thinking to myself, it better be good because I paid a heavy price for it. Oh yeah, it turned out to be quite entertaining, did not disappoint me at all. I would say it is the best performance I have ever watched. Or maybe it is because the past performances that I have watched were just plain bad. If you are wondering, Danzation is a dance performance organised by Ngee Ann poly with performances by many external dance crews, mainly hip hop dance. It takes place every two years so I am quite lucky to have caught it.

Side-tracking, my tumblr is not totally dead. I thought that it would be a better idea to just have a place specifically for pictures and one for my thoughts and feelings. Not many strangers would appreciate reading about what I write on tumblr. So do check it out.

A new start

I'm glad everything has settled down. Sorry for letting you down once again. I will try my best to make it not happen again as I really do not want to lose your trust.
I am still looking forward to NS though. I hope to have fulfiling life inside and I will come out a stronger man with greater capabilities. I probably also need to find something else to occupy my mind.
Let us meet again if fate permits.

Ns

At first, I was dreading Ns, but now I think I will be better off being inside Ns. At least it is a world which I can predict to a certain extent. And I won't have any stress due to stuffs.

Fate

I am being very honest here.
I think that fate is a bitch and I am her latest favourite target to play with.

Lessons from this holiday Pt 1

This holiday, I have learnt many valuable lessons. So here goes,

1. Number one on the hit list, "Enlistment" is a taboo word for employers. Okay maybe only in my case, because I only have freaking a month left on Earth.
2. Always set aside enough money for your holiday, especially if there is a special event like prom, effing expensive.
3. There will always be jobs for you even if you can only work for a day. I know I can go apply, but I have several requirements for a job that suits me.
4.  Long holiday is boring without the two things that men often worry about.
5. Ns is a major disruption to your life.
6. It is super tough to grow long hair which looks nice.**

Reflection

Another lonely chilly night in my room, perfect mood to reflect.
Okay I have slightly exaggerated it, but I am in a mood to reflect.
For some unknown reason, this post by my friend kept surfacing in my mind. She roughly said that humans are too greedy. When we get the things we want, we start to expect more of them. I guess I am guilty of this too. I can claim to want only this, but deep inside my heart I want more. So a new resolution to be less greedy?
On a separate issue that just randomly popped into my mind, I am sorry to let anyone down, knowingly or unknowingly. From many notes in the past, I realized that some people envy me and wish to be like me. The truth is I am not perfect. I am only a human with my own dislikes, my own fears and insecurities.

Resolution

I have finally come up with a set of new year resolution.
The resolutions are, not in order of priority (* indicates higher importance)

• Get into an army vocation that pays me near a thousand dollars* ( I could really use the cash )
• Be a stronger person***
• Learn how to play the guitar**
• Try to keep in contact with friends*
• Keep a nice hair that is suitable for army yet looks cool***
• Study hard (should I flunk my examinations)*
• Get tanned***
• Get my six-pack***
• Look hotter and more mature (oh and of course be more mature)***
• Not losing sight of my dream****
• Make good friends in the army*

That is roughly about it. By December, I will come back to review this resolution.

Eve of new year

On the eve of new year, I went out to my friend's house for a steamboat dinner with part of my class. Played guitar hero and also with her dog. I think I can be a dog trainer as a part-time job, my hidden talent. In the meantime I also fretted over where to go later on. Quite funny.
After putting on the contacts which were killing my eyes at that time, I went off early.
I am glad that we spent the last day of the year together. Quite enjoyable just sitting there and talk. And the Indian dude was super funny. Will not be our last time doing this.
I have yet to thought of my new year resolution, but I have a rough idea of them. You should also write one too, would be quite fun to see.

Ami's Birthday

On Wednesday, went out to celebrate Ami's 19th birthday. Was supposed to go barrage, but hunk had different plans so we went ahead with it. The nice thing about going out with them is that they know I will definitely be late and so they will also be late. So hunk waited an hour for me, and we both waited two hours for our Maknae. Went to watch Fockers, had quite a bit of fun disturbing our Maknae there. Then went for dinner at Marina Square, where we took very long to decide on a place to eat due to Maknae's special request. Gave him a tool to battle his demon, hope it will be used wisely. Then we cam-whore with Maknae's lousy camera, disappointing. End of story.