Felt the urge to rant on my blog, unable to sleep and kept thinking about stuffs. So here I am, on my mobile typing away.
With A-level coming so soon, I feel very unprepared relative to last year. Super stressed out. One is because of lack of time, another is my self-discipline.
I think that everyone expects a lot from me. I don't know why is that the case. Even when I have so much to deal with, I have to entertain their requests. Okay so when I give in, they expect more from me. I effing have to book in to a damn run-down camp filled with morons after one week in civilian world, and my last day of freedom is fucking packed.
I don't know why recently I feel so much anger in me, prolly due to exam stress and mother bitch ns. I somehow feel that people think my life very easy, ns like some chalet, exams coming can just heck it. Every sunday book in for one week of orientation camp till the next book out. It is only Ns, nothing to do, book out also nothing to do.
I honestly think I am quite strong mentally, others in my position might have broken down long ago. Juggle so many things at once, just when you thought serving ns is brainless, there are so many things to learn and prepare for. Dealing with morons to hone your ability to survive in outside world. It all boils down to one thing-time. I. Need. More. Time. I don't want to lead an army life, screw this.